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MissJessikaLauren
Avatar sejak: 2007-09-23
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Age: 35 Terverifikasi umur 18+ Usia Terverifikasi
Amerika Serikat - VA
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"The angels dressed for the wake, but she sent them home...with a handful of bullet shells."

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.Then as it was.then again it will be.
& though the course may change sometimes.
rivers always reach the sea.
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"And what does the lord require of you but to do justice and to love kindness and to walk humbly with your God." -Micah 6:8

My name is Jessika Lauren& I kill them with kindness.I was put on this earth to change your perception.Do not underestimate me....You'll live to regret it.=]&& my ultimate weapon is non other than my unfailing confidence.I have the style and the class that can kick your ass.I'm not settling anymore,and I kinda do my own thing.I'm just a badass.I was born on sweetest day, October 21st 1988. Soo if you do the math, that makes me 21, which makes me old enough to take pictures in my undies.& You wouldn't believe me but I've been through so much more than you could ever fathom in my young age.Everything I have,I have had to fight for. &&God means everything && more to me.I find my strength in him.Without him I am no one...I know exactly what I want.I'm extremely ambitous, and probally one of the most determined people you will ever meet.I never back down, and I never give up.period.I'll never let you down.I never break promises, and hold true to any commitments and always follow through with what I say at one time or another.I went to school at Scarlet Oaks where I somehow managed to have been on honor roll and graduated '07.I am going to school for journalism/political science to be a political analyst but plan on getting my bsn and specializing in emergency care physician and specialize in Emergency Surgery and Critical Care transport, although, my absolute passion is Chemistry, I'm quite gifted in it,and I hope to take organic chem, and all the chemistry classes that I possibly can and someday get to do lab work, I would much rather pursue that.All through school, my best & favorite subject has always been in Science. I drive a Honda Civic.I find Face book highly overrated.I am living proof you can't judge a book by its cover, soft spoken and always cold. if I could, I would just go through life rather unnoticed. I am a younger sister,and the only aunt of two amazing little girls.I will warn you now,I really say and do the most random things, but I'm said to be "a hoot." Yes,I said "a hoot."Which I guess just means I'm really fun,if that counts.I just want to see you smile.The main thing you need to know about me is that I truly do love unconditionally.always have.always will.

It doesn't take much to entertain me or make me happy, but sometimes I would just rather curl up in bed & forget the world.I prefer to be alone with my thoughts over most people. Nothing personal. Well, maybe it is. i wont judge you, but ill love you if thats okay.I am most happy when it is stormy and windy out, with just a little thunder or covered with white glistening snow for miles and miles with snow still tumbling down...Or a baumy beach, with the waves tumbling in at night under the moon.I still have no idea why to this day as to why I just find it all beautiful.One thing I live for are the long, relaxing car rides at night with nowhere to go under a harvest moon. I love how I learn more and more about myself, and who I am, everyday.I like to just sit down and recognize the small things in life.No matter what you look like, I'll still think you're beautiful.I don’t judge people by their outer appearance.I believe you shouldn’t be judged on what you look like,but by what you do to get looked at.So take a good look at my insides,discover who I really am,for that I’ll love you eternally.Above all though,I refuse to be conniving, backstabbing or talk behind anyone's back,hell, I won't really even be cross with you to your face just for the simple reason I know it hurts, and I can't intentionally hurt another human being.Its one of my many faults so its more than obvious that I'm way too nice and forgiving,yet I never forget, but I will never hold that against you.I am just incapable of holding grudges.It makes me laugh that ignorant minded people who think they are better than others and love nothing more than to be mean to other people actually think they are worth my time.As much as I don't approve-I am very quick to assume, so please look past that.You'll never hear me complain.I am not the slightest bit materialistic.I'm also a very open person, a realist.Ill try almost anything once.I'm just trying to be a better person.I am trying to quit swearing.I never have been addicted to cigarettes nor do I ever intend to be and the hardest drug I ever really tried was weed, and loved it,along with one or two other exceptions for experimental purposes only.-but I put those days behind me now because of my job.I don't really party too often,but when I do...you best believe I party like a rock star,but I'm starting to mellow out and nothing phases me anymore, its all the same.

I want to move to either Florida,California(already did.),Japan,Scotland or New Zealand.I won't be staying here.I'm very passionate about my music.I am confident but nervous, the drumbeats melt my heart.When I'm unable to speak, I scribble thoughts down. My perspectives are through the lens of my every captured moments. Through difficult times, I find myself seeking therapy through Music.You know when you ask someone what type of music they listen to, and they answer you by saying "pretty much all kinds of music?"Well minus rap,hip hop and country from that list and you have it.My taste tends to lean towards anything metal,acoustic, or just simply artistic.I love hardcore/metal breakdowns. I spend alot of my freetime writing.My goal is to atleast have one book published in my lifetime whether it be fiction or medical,so, regardless, you will see my name someday on either a paperback or hardcover.If I had my way, I'd have my own little library and work in a book store.I actually happen to be an organ donor...I believe it's almost selfish not to be.=]I am a firm believer that people come into your life for a reason.Someday I hope to own a English Mastiff,a Golden doodle & a Siberian Husky.I am fascinated by anything about Titanic, or anything that has to do with the medical field of course, or political science.I am also a vegetarian although I absolutely LOVE New Fusion Buffet.I really exercise and say the word "like" entirely too much, and yes,I know.I have chubby cheeks.You don't have to tell me.I take wayy too many photos.I'm very unique in that different kind of way, I dress however I please,mainly for comfort.I once had my ears gauged to just a 6 and I had planned on going to a 4, making my second hole a 6 but because I chose to get into the military,I took those bad boys out asap.I absolutely love tattoos, and only have one small one of the moon & stars on my lower right hip and plan on getting a few more.I look up to John Lennon as one of the few human beings I can really respect for what he stood for. I also really admire Shamaya of Otep and Maria Brink of In This Moment.I also have a slight obsession with who might just possibly be the sexiest male alive,Patrick Fugit.<3I also really like Nikolaj Coster Waldau and Bronsen Arroyo. I think money is evil.I do not like movie theaters.I am terrified of fire, bees, and things that pop.My favorite thing to do ever is surfing & running.I'm a bit of an "extremist."I have kind of a black&white/all or nothing way of thinking.I don't really know how to take compliments.

I'd choose my career over any boy.My friends are super important to me.Idk what I'd do without them. I love my girls.Besties for lyfee.I would most defenitly ditch any boy for them.I like to party,hardd, and drunk dialing is the best.Sometimes i can be very socially inept,but i mean the best in everything i do.I often come off as bored,when I am just somewhat shy.I believe in second chances.I like everyone I meet and I'm really friendly,just a little shy at first.You can tell me all your secrets.I almost don't know how to judge anybody in this world.I really can't stand drama at all.I'm very happy with who I am and I also can't stand it when girls get jealous. No one is better than anyone and you don't have to be mean to try to prove it.If you actually read all of that...you're awesome.Holla.P.s I'm damn precious. =]

"The weak can never forgive.Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong."-Gandhi

"For 6od did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline."

-2 Timothy 1:7

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

-Isaiah 41:10

"Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult but with blessing,because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing." -1 peter 3:9

"Love is patient,love is kind.It does not envy,it does not boast,it is not proud.It is not rude,it is not self-seeking,it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs."-1 Corinthians 13:4-5

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When I'm ready for who it is I am meant for,I am hoping he finds me, and happens to be someone who is loyal,a man who doesn't really have too much baggage and can leave his exes in the past where they belong,but I'm looking for the one, and I refuse to settle for just any guy.I'm just waiting for someone worth it that knows what they want,not what they THINK they want, deployed or not.I'm willing to wait for whats worth it, I just want to believe theres someone out there that wont just abandon me the way I had been in the past or who can keep me intrigued unlike anyone else because I have dated many guys and tend to loose interest pretty quick.I want to meet that one guy who I wouldn't be able to see myself without. I've made my share of mistakes because for the most part,I tend to think with my heart,but I am not a stupid girl so no, I will not have sex with you. I will not be used.I refuse to be second choice.I am known to get over things really quickly and I can cut people out of my life just like that...so don't be expecting me to play along with any petty mind games.Don't just tell me things I want to hear unless you actually mean them.I'm not easy to convince, so if all you want and all you see in me is some one to destroy and conquer,keep looking.I know whoever I'm suppose to be with is out there but sometimes it gets hard believing he still exists but I know God will send me whoever it is I'm suppose to be with and I won't settle for less.The most admirable thing in a guy in my opinion is his undying passion for Christ, and someone who will actually go to church with me.I usually fall for the sensitive musician type,or just someone very passionate about music.He has to be extremely ambitious such as myself and set high goals for themselves Laziness is a big turn off for me.I actually find myself VERY attracted to guys in the military, for reasons I don't even know.I just love my guys in uniform ;) haha && guys that are too skinny tend to freak me out a bit only for the simple fact they make me feel fat, also I don't usually go for red heads&& I loveee tattoos =) I would fall for the guy that actually pays for one,so every time I look at it, I'll think of him,haha. I could care less what anyone else has to say about you.I think for myself.Please do not,I repeat DO NOT tell me you are different unless you actually proceed to show me so.K thanks.=]I want someone who makes an effort, and actually cares enough to wipe away all my insecurities, and I will do the same.Yet,I need someone confident,with a good sense of humor and adventure that can keep me on my toes, as well as keep up with me in every way.Please don't be shady.I have nothing to hide, and neither should you.Most importantly, I just want to find my best friend,my other half.Someone who will never leave me,knows what they want, not what they think they want and who can teach me how to feel again.I don't want any drama or stupid fights. I'm not a fighter, so if you're looking for a fight- look somewhere else...&& I am in need of a hero,I want to meet someone who can actually figure me out,since anyone has yet to, but you probably won't interest me the slightest bit anyways.Chances are,I just want to be friends.I should really be too burnt out on the concept of being anything more, but i cant help but to just want someone to show me what it is to feel alive... Photobucket

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"It may after all be the bad habit of creative talents to invest themselves in pathological extremes that yield remarkable insights but no durable way of life for those who cannot translate their psychological wounds into significant art of thought."

"Start up the engine,lets get out by heading away from here.& there's no next year for me here.Take hits and pass it & let all the ashes fall to the floor.Once you have it all, you'll still want more.Take my innocence away, would they even notice either way? My visions blurred, can you tell I'm the kid that was not into going to church?Start up the fire,lets burn this place straight down,down to the ground.If no one makes a sound then I'll say,let's use my lighter.In life we're the writers to our own books.I've written mine on lies and catchy hooks.Lets dance around the mess we've made.Call someone up let's score an 8th to sit and relax.There's nothing we can do about the past.The stars are burning out tonight.Do you think we'll stay this high?& watch our favorite ones outside, before this turns to black,lets burn away our past& set this cruise control for crash.Someone sees smoke, call 911,let's let this burn until it's done.Don't walk away. lets let them see the mess that we became.Sirens flashing, here's the cops.Don't blame this on not having jobs but dreams & I see things cause I'm not afraid to think outside the box & now I'm shaking, I hope I'm making perfect sense so place your bets to see where I end up and oh my god this Place is so messed up.Rip me apart to see my insides.Compose myself, I'm not secure.& don't believe a single thing that you have heard.Throw my pride into this fire. My confidence is dead, I'm tired.Who's giving up?(I'm giving up) I won't burn out, I'll just burn up.&I was raised on excellence,always taught to look my best.I don't wanna be just anybody.I don't wanna be anything you forget.Villians die and heroes live forever.I don't wanna be just anybody.I don't wanna be anything you forget."-Octoberfall

"As her insides,are screaming,let me out,she speaks as if someone's in the room with her.Someone sits quietly on the ceiling tile.Still facing the corner with eyes gouged out,these tears of blood fall for blood is all she's crying now.As he cuts into her chest, her heart beats on She's just not giving up yet.Though blinded by the devil's touch,She rises above him.She floats towards the light, as the darkness recedes.Let me out, let me live again.In this most desperate hour,she cries.A most desperate hour...In this crowded room,with an empty view.Save your goodbyes, we all know it's not the end. "-Vanna

"So, I learn from my mistakes. It's a very painful way to learn, but without pain, the old saying is, there's no gain. I found that to be true in my life. You miss a lot of opportunities by making mistakes, but that's part of it: knowing that you're not shut out forever, and that there's a goal you still can reach."-Johnny Ca$h

"Something you once told me-No regrets, no wasted efforts.I'm left in the wake of your returning glory.You looked so confident, in your decision,for the light of your indifference.So pure in your deception,So right in your mind,This is just my luck,It's always been my luck.Come closer so I can see you.You're cold to the touch.Hasn't anyone ever told you this is just my luck?Say what you will-You're no longer the death of me.This whole shipwreck has been sent to sea.So go ahead and take what you will from me.It doesn't matter.I've been set free And I am running out of words.And I am running out of time.To explain to you what we could have been.Now the chance is over and I'll admit that:I am just fine today.You won't bring me down again." -Sky Eats Airplan

"We're here, only to replace the air.On nights where the city lights shine so beautifully.It's a mirror image of the stars in the sky.Each are corresponding to one on the other side.We aren't the perfect things in poetry.We love and breathe only to be remembered.Grasping to the hope that someone will aspire to attain what never came to be.. That someday someone will sing of our dreams.& live to be what we couldn't."-Upon Beauty Rests

"It's the same sound.Same sting.The same collapse of every thing. It's the same size,same blade,the same lie,My way,my face my heart,my race.I'm a mistake.My way,my face,my heart,my race.I'm such a disgrace.You're perfectly flawed You're perfectly incomplete-Like cracks in the glass And flames full of ash.You're perfectly flawed You're perfectly incomplete.Let them come near when Perfection's the key you need.Its the same doubt,the same dream.It's the same sabotage,'cos i'm the enemy.It's the same night,same day.It's the same parasite,feeding on the betrayal.You're perfectly flawed.You're perfectly incomplete.A work in progress.Perfection is killing me.A disguise of self-deception-hides my secrets perfectly I'm rejecting my reflection,'cos i hate the way it judges me. -Otep

"She was only seventeen and forced to blame it on herself,as she hides away to tame the pain she feels.She was thrown to a scene.A drunken man without a will.She was only trying to breathe.Her broken nails had sliced his skin as he bruised her face she fades away again.When she came to at the scene.A fevered wind and a match in hand,as she watched the flames she felt alive again."-Cold

"When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace."-Jmi Hendrix

"All men dream: but not equally, Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, to make it possible. This I did."-T. E. Lawrence(Seven Pillars of Wisdom)

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